Survivng the feat....**

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....an aviators wife knows that the weather actually controls her entire life.....its been very, very foggy in NEVER NEVER LAND, and as people have complained about it I have smiled quietly to myself because its one of my favorite things about winters here......with exception of today...........your flight to NEVER NEVER LAND has been canceled due to FOG in Romania.

and the only thing I can do is laugh because.....its clear as a bell in NEVER NEVER LAND......so....its one more day.....one more day apart......

....I know it sounds weird but I savior it and hate it all at the same time.  I enjoy the peace, the laziness and endless free time, I finished knitting you a pair of socks.  At the same time, I can hardly wait for the rush, the adventure, and the chaos of your return....

....and then it comes.  The day comes.  But its bittersweet.  Not every soldier from your group is coming home.  A small handful are staying behind, and you were one of the lucky ones that gets to come home in time for Christmas.

The fear I have of this moment, of you, of the return, and all that comes with it is so terrifying- I actually turn to one of the wives whose husband will not be returning and ask her out loud...."Am I going to be okay?"  Its that paralyzing fear that you feel before you take a leap, before you step in the ring, before you take a big chance.....before you do something you have never done before.....

....I spent hours becoming more beautiful than I could ever imagine being and now I sit in the same hanger I watched you leave in 6 months ago.....you will be coming in at any moment.....and then you do.....except I can't tell which soldier is you.....I try to pick you out in the group....I search with great determination to find your face so that I can tell from which direction you will be coming....to no avail....and then like a cue ball hitting the group on a pool table you guys scatter....

....I walk a few steps but then I freeze because I see you, a woman walking in front of you momentarily disrupts your path and I see you shuffle her along.....our eyes lock...and I jump.....

....I leap for love, for victory, in blind faith, of the future, in your arms all the fear, all the anxiety, the weight, the stress, the torment.....it just disappears......everything that has ever happened or will ever happen doesn't matter.......any more.....in fact.....I can't even remember anything....because....we are new.....you didn't come back......I just waited until we met again......

....like infinity.....it never ends, but some points go further apart......until they intersect again.....

....Just another day in the life of an unlikely military wife....**