Isolation v. Reality....**

Hey Blog....

Obviously I need to go on a diet and start watching what I am putting my mouth.....which proves to be difficult when you are very isolated, lonely and when there isn't much to do.  Incredible discipline is necessary....


I have spent most of my days knitting, living in a world of my own thoughts, un-poisoned by any other outside influences, I stare out the window for long periods of time, I reflect, debate, and ponder the future.  While I rather enjoy a life where I do not worry about the goings on in the world I wonder.....What is going on?  I wonder if the world is ending and I just simply don't know......is that a good thing....or a bad thing?

Turns out its a bad thing......

On March 3, 2011:

Two US Airmen were fatally shot at the Frankfurt Airport.  Another two American Servicemen were wounded when a lone gunman opened fire on a US Military bus parked outside the terminal building.

Investigators are pursuing what German media described as "substantial evidence" that the 21-year-old Kosovan suspected of carrying out the attack had links with Islamist groups in GERMANY. There is concern that more attacks may be in the works.

The suspect, who is believed to have worked at the airport and grown up in Germany, has been identified by the Kosovan government as Arif Uka, originally from the northern town of Mitrovica.

Police are investigating reports he shouted "Allahu Akbar" (God is greatest) before pulling the trigger and are examining his Facebook account, which details what appear to be Islamist beliefs.

Police believe the attack was premeditated and the suspect must have known the bus would be there at that particular time. The vehicle allegedly had US air force number plates but the airmen, who were on their way to a big US base in Ramstein, were not wearing uniforms, reported the Frankfurter Allgemeine Zeitung.

The dead and wounded servicemen have not been named, but the US air force has confirmed they were all UK-based military policemen en route to Ramstein to be deployed to Afghanistan.

Germany has not had a terrorist attack like those in Madrid and London in the past decade, but three of the 9/11 attackers lived in Germany, and security officials acknowledge that it remains a breeding ground for Islamist radicals.

Here is my facebook post for March 4, 2011.

'In light of the tragic events in Frankfurt I felt the need to step back into reality, I want my family to know that I am safe and sound- you know how LEGS operates and we are on high alert, please take a minute to mourn the death of the two airmen that were shot and killed in the very same airport and on the same bus that I was in just a few weeks ago, I am seriously upset about this, but refuse to be frightened...**'

Obviously I was incredibly upset and wrote a plethora of pages in my journal ranting in anger over the situation.  When things like this happen I always get angry at the people that in my life have minimized my apprehension and anxiety over the possibility of these things happening. 

I wonder what I am supposed to feel? Fear? Vulnerability? Should I become a hermit? Should I just forget it ever happened? And that its real? Should I live in shame because I am American? Should I accept this burden because I was just a girl....that fell in love...with a man who selflessly and faithfully serves his country?


Its just not fair.....

and I shudder and weep to think of the families who were already sacrificing so much for these men to deploy.  They just went through all the heartache and desperation of saying goodbye and now they were shot and killed before they even left the damn airport!?!


Just imagine for one minute that these men/women are just like you.  They have families, they have pets, they eat dinner every night, and they are just out there trying to make a living, many of them escaping a life of poverty, EXCEPT an occupational hazard is CONSTANTLY being a TARGET.....


Heavy sigh.....tears......ANGER......RAGE.......


Over and Out....


Just another day in the life of an unlikely military wife......**