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A Day, A Week, A Month, A Year...IN THE LIFE of AN UNLIKELY.....MILITARY WIFE....** (A collection of snapshots, letters and memoirs DEDICATED to CHRISTOPHER ALLAN COUSSENS.)

Friday, August 5, 2011

Please help me be the person my dog thinks I am....**

WHAT'S GOIN' ON? Blog...

Weather: In NEVER NEVER LAND, just wait five minutes and the weather will change.

Exchange Rate: 1 buck equals 1 dollar forty two.....

About Karmella.....my little Veloceraptor.....now that we have her running away under control;

'Animals are reliable, many full of love, true in their affections, predicatable in their actions, grateful and loyal.  Difficult standards for people to live up to.' -Alfred A. Montapert

The more I go through life the more I see this as true.....



I LOVE my doggie Karmella, while LEGS was gone last week, she showered me with comfort and affection, she even followed behind me the ENTIRE TIME I was cutting the grass...and she sits in the garden while I am wedding- which for her is pretty damn focused.  I could never live in NEVER NEVER LAND without here, her companionship is something I know that I can count on.  Its sad but true; she absolutely impresses me more than most the people I meet or know.....

I think you can probably tell in my blogs...and sentiment. That I have been disappointed by people lately.  Its just such a bummer when you are excited about the person, like you think they have changed, but they haven't. Or when you first meet them, you think you are going to have this fantastic friendship...and then....something happens and it becomes glaringly apparent that you could never have that relationship with them...it just sucks so BAD!  But I suppose its selfish of me to think or hope that they are capable of being this amazing person that I thought they were......NEXT!

I was listening to Robin Thicke Station on Pandora....while cleaning out the fridge (one of my least favorite chores). A song that I really like came on and I wanted to blast it....but my subwoofer/speakers is American....I called out to LEGS in the living room 'LEGS, do you believe in Fair Treatment for YOUR EMPLOYEES?'

LEGS:' HUH? Yeah...why?'
ARMS:' Because I really want my music loud while I slave away...'

Gotta love a man of action.  He dug my set up out of the attic, plugged it into the transformer and HOOKED ME UP!  Next thing I know I am ready to rip his uniform off....who would have thought a subwoofer would be such a turn on?

This ENTIRE week the neighbors probably think I have been partying NON STOP! I have been blasting my music like crazy.....its the little things in life!

I have fallen hard for Cycling.  I find it to be just as exhilarating as boxing; it is consuming, mentally challenging, strategic, and difficult.  I thrive on that.  I am satisfied I have filled the void and I don't have to get punched in the head anymore to be fit or feel intoxicated with a herculean task...I just LOVE that IMPOSSIBLE challenge.  

I rode my A** OFF with LEGS this past weekend, and while at times I struggled to keep up with him....this is NOTHING NEW for me, I have been the underdog my whole life, I have been fighting my WHOLE life to keep up, show up, and beat up THE BOYZ, I feed off the adversity, I am fighting against a billion years of NATURE- what's your excuse???

'I, with deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, wo makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naive or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman. - Anais Nin

I am so lucky to have a husband who supports me when I am unable to keep up with him, but still blindly believes that I will.  

There was a moment in my life this passed weekend, where my husband looked at me....he peered deep into my soul and my heart and told me 'I Love You More Than Anything in The World.' and I looked back at him with the same passion and said 'I Love You Back'...and we hugged each other tight, (maybe shed a few tears) and thanked our lucky stars....

I was sad to wake up to Monday, we had such a great weekend.....

Movies that we watched that I recommend:

The Adjustment Bureau
Blue Valentine
Sucker Punch




This is my Grandpa at a Dedication of Sampson Veterans Memorial in Romulus....He served in the Army during the 'Forgotten War'- although unconfirmed, he has a whole list of physical ailments that have been caused by his time in the Army. In this household- we are proud of him and thankful for his service....because we realize and understand that serving in the military (no matter how long/short) is a lifetime of SACRIFICE!

This Saturday my Sissy is going to run 6 miles in a race, and I am going to ride 60 miles on my bike- both of us are tackling this for the first time.  I find it amusing that our lives continue to run on a crazy paradox.  We both will be embarking on a frightening test of physical prowess....I am scared sh*tless....but when I feel like quitting- which may happen- I shall think of her- no SENSE in freaking out it will only waste my energy....so I told her we should both put it out of our minds then take one step and one mile at a time- and look at the big picture...only when finished.....

I went to IKEA for the first time this week.  I can see the appeal of it if you are remodeling your house.  But....since I am not....my impression of it was YEAH....ITS COOL....so ANYWAYZ, that being said I did score some things we NEEDED...

FITNESS STATUS:

Days 4,5,6 and half of 7 on the ADVOCARE CLEANSE:

Weight Day 1: 142lbs.
Weight Day 7: 138 lbs.

I have had a few things working against me these last few days, first of all I have been out and about- which makes my options and influences to be bad on the cleanse more prominent and powerful.

Its hard to spend time with people who have poor eating habits, and its hard to resist the bad things when the good options are not that appealing....but I was more powerful than peer pressure.

Also, LEGS was flying nights, so I was hungry and tired and there was nobody here to hold me accountable, but I managed to hold myself accountable.

Today I am feeling stronger, and am hoping to power through our social event we have tonight.

I feel great.  These are the things I have noticed; my skin looks more radiant, no dark circles, less wrinkles/tired/worn out look, the whites of my eyes are whiter.  My waist is looking slimmer and I am started to shred (my abs are starting to show!).  My energy is higher, my mood is happier, and I feel more satisfied.

I have slowed my exercise down these last few days in anticipation of our super long ride tomorrow, and I have also slightly increased my consumption of COMPLEX CARBS....

Beginning today, treat everyone you meet as if they were going to be dead by midnight.  Extend to them all the care, kindness and understanding you can muster, and do it with no thought of any reward.  Your life will never be the same again. -Og Mandino

Do it....and get back to me.....

Random Thoughts:

GAH! German is HARD!!! 

GAH! I need to BLOG!!!

GAH!

I love that sound GAH! 

On the last stripe of Rylee's blanket.....YAY!

(heavy sigh) People exhaust me......its like for every day I spend with people I need 4 days to recover.....

I keep getting told I should be a personal trainer....NOPE....couldn't do it- people are too lazy and don't want to change.....

Man....why do I give people so many excuses....its obvious why they are the way they are.....its the choices they make- yet I have a hard time holding them accountable? What happened to Accountability? I think it may have disappeared with the self-esteem movement.....

I want to eat cheese.....and I bought new wine glasses...so I want to drink wine out of them......

I HATE that food has power over me.....

I have been thinking.....maybe changing the world is impossible, maybe all you can do is change yourself?  

Please help me be the person my dog thinks I am......

Just....another day in the life of an unlikely military wife....**




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