...I am HER again....

Day 3
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beloved LEGS....

I went to boxing last night and hurt my ankle........again.....I was so embarrassed when I went down....I felt like an old lady.....the peculiar thing is that on the way there.....I was questioning whether I have what it takes to do this....I thought to myself that the Universe should send me a sign.....well....SHIT.....I guess it did......

I am sitting in the house feeling, weak, broken, alone, insecure and unsure of myself or my purpose right now.  I am trying to navigate my next step but its hard when I am limping both physically and mentally.

.....enough is enough.....


The crazy neurosis have kicked in.....a deep clean of the house is under way..........I am going through my closet......two LEGS in ONE LEG of my OLD JEANS!!!!

Did Crossfit.....funny stuff;

We did GS mobility and I was paired up with a newish girl, I can't remember her name but she is a cutie, short, strong and sweet, she is trying to do the shoulder blade thing at the end but because she is so short she is having trouble, so.....that guy that has been helping Coach Rob lately- seesh- I can't remember his name either.....you and I have talked about him before- lots of tattoos  and physically impressive...? 

So anyways..... he is the one pushing my shoulders through.....  but I don't know that I think its the girl, so there I am saying "OH ya that's the spot, damn you do it good..." I hop down off the bar turn around and its him!?!?! You leave for three days, and I am already saying inappropriate things to other men and blushing at the realization.....

I should have used a bigger kettle bell....damn it....

I got a lot of HUGS,  and Gunther touched my ass again- I was like "who the f*&^!? And then I saw that it was him...ha ha! .....

and I left feeling, like a survivor....

I am HER again.  The cold one.  I accept it, I welcome its embrace.  Beautiful but poisonous......with no heart.......

A beautiful girl lives inside a house.  Inside a German Village.  The German Village is in the Universe, but some where around the world.  The house has a red peaked roof, that sits under the stars and moon and sun, and rain, and snow, and frost, and wind lots and lots of wind.  And under the roof is a beautiful girl that sleeps there alone, and eats there, she lives there alone in house on a hill.  And then one night, In the Universe, around the world, in German Village, in a house on a hill with red peaked roof, under the stars and the moon, under a blanket of snow, and frost, and in the wind she becomes a solitaire.  She is a .....gem, an isolated jewel......something prized especially for great beauty or perfection......but like a semiprecious stone that has been cut and polished for an ornament, an ornament is hollow.....A beautiful jewel lives inside a house, Inside a German Village, but nobody knows where.......

....Just another day in the life of an unlikely military wife.....**