Having Faith....**

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The local weather brought to you by the one and only, often imitated never duplicated 'TANK Girl': Thank the Lord Jesus and Moses it did not rain in Portland, Oregon today, the yard is starting to dry out.....just a little.....maybe.  Also, I have to keep reminding myself that its Christmas because without snow......its just bizarre......

On June 5, 2010 I lost a dear, dear friend of mine named LEX.  Exactly 5 months later something VERY interesting and special happened to me.  

I was feeling really down, because last year on Thanksgiving I said goodbye to this friend thinking I would see him again, but I never got the chance.  I had been thinking about him often and missed his companionship, friendship, but most of all I missed how he seemed to understand me so well.......because I often feel misunderstood and weird to most other people.  

A few days before November 5th, 2010 I had gotten a friend request from a girl named Kat.  She was mutual friends with one other person- LEGS.....I asked LEGS who she was and he said 'a friend from high school.'  So I confirmed her.  On November 5, I got a message from Kat that said:

Kat:' I don't know why, but I really like you.'

I literally was laughing in an empty house out loud, because what do you say to that? And isn't kinda rude? But luckily I find people who say what they mean and mean what they say refreshing.  

Kat and I started a very deep and captivating pen pal friendship on facebook. (Listen.....I know this is weird......) I have learned that Kat has had a very challenging past, much like my good friend LEX.  I started to think, why would she come into my life exactly 5 months after his passing?......it must be destiny. People say that I'm a spook, but all I could do was think maybe LEX wanted me to have her in my life......

Then I asked her what she does for a living and learned that she is preparing to go to Monastery to become an Orthodox nun.  I have found this to be a very fascinating, refreshing and amazing path in life......I mean I have never known a nun before...have you?

She says most people support her because they like the idea of a nun praying for them, however, I support her because I find the discipline required for this lifestyle and the selflessness of it all to be intriguing and inspiring. She also sings in the liturgy, which is the service itself which I also find amazing, since these songs have been sung for thousands of years!!!!

( I know what you are thinking.....she could be lying right? But.....I'm no fool.....she has sent me video of her singing one of the services, I have pictures of her in front of the pictures of the saints in the church, and her religious knowledge is incredible) oh and she went to a Jesuit High School along with my husband.


I don't know why but her and I have an electrical connection, we talk about all kinds of amazing things, books, music, we read each other's blogs, we ask questions about each others lives, its exciting, I cannot wait to get messages from her and vice versa.  

I have also found that I feel more secure in my belief in GOD, I am not religious, I do not go to church, but as a military wife I have to comfort myself with the idea of a high power.  Kat makes me feel at peace in my belief, and she also has an amazing perspective on why church and religion is broken, and what can be done to fix it.   

I have learned through getting to know her, that first of all trusting the bizarre things (like getting to know people on facebook) that happen to you in life is perfectly okay, and also having faith that everything will work out is important- I guess it does help that she prays for me which lifts my spirit and makes my heart just glow so much that I have been praying more, I have been more thankful and more compassionate....its like I actually HAVE FAITH.......


I met her for the first time face to face today, and it was incredible.  First of all she has the most sugary sweet smooth like caramel voice, she gives the best hugs, she brought LEGS, Queen Di, and I Christmas gifts, and she has the most amazing light inside her.  


(Side note: When LEGS first went to Iraq the first time, he sent me religious books to read and had a firm belief in GOD.  By the time he returned he had lost all hope and all faith.  That was years ago, and it is still lost (much to my dismay) )


LEGS and Kat discussed religion on the way home, and it was like I could almost see him finding his faith again........MAGICAL.......


Kat has become a special part of my life, I am so glad to have met her....Something tells me that Kat and I are going to be very good friends for a very long time.......Love ya kitty Kat......

Random Thoughts and Stories: 


The big garage door was accidentally left open today.  LEGS went to take Karmella outside to 'Go Potty' and she took off running toward the VERY busy street located in front of the Coussens' property.  LEGS fiercely ran her down and was able to catch her right before she was doomed.  After he had caught her, he walked home sobbing (side note: LEGS DOES NOT CRY EVER!!!) He said he had to spend 10 minutes in the garage getting himself together before he could enter the house.  Once he came into the house I could tell something was wrong......but he felt like everybody was oblivious to what he had just been through.......He sat down on the couch today and cried a little more in front of Kat and I.  He said he was so afraid of losing Karmella today.  


D.A.P.S works.  The dogs seem a lot more calm and relaxed today.

It hasn't always been easy, but I find myself really growing to like, love and enjoy LEGS' family.  I suspect that they have finally accepted me, just as I have finally accepted them.  We have had an amazing time full of laughter, love, and an openness that I have never experienced with them.   I love you Bobdad, Queen Di, LEGS, Cupcake, Short stop, and there are a few others I have not mentioned (though they know who they are) because I don't have the perfect nicknames for them..... yet.....


Queen Di took me to get fabric today, we picked out a pattern to make an apron......I AM SO EXCITED to learn to sew!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE EVE.......

Just another day in the life of an unlikely military wife.......**