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Let's get down to business.....
After I posted my blog yesterday, I felt anxious and unsettled all day and all night. I waited with baited breath to see what people would say or if people would say anything. I called The Mommy, The Sissy, and a few other friends to ask for advice both before and after the blog.
Something was bothering me. I had two choices. I could say what was occupying my mind in my blog, or I could hold it in to save face and perhaps other people's feelings. I decided for the sake of my sanity and the honesty of my blog to say something.
Honesty is so undervalued and rare these days. We are so concerned with people's feelings that we don't tell the truth anymore, we fib our way along, and fake it until we make it. If something was bothering any of my friends or family I would want them to say it, even if it hurt my feelings. And I wouldn't care how foolish or childish or silly it may be.
Hours after I posted the blog, I regretted it. I kept thinking, I shouldn't have said anything, I shouldn't have opened up and shown all my cards. I realized that what I said and did yesterday could alienate me from the only family I have over here, not to mention other military family I have around the world.
But by the time I went to bed last night, I felt completely OVER IT. I said what was on my mind, I shared my true thoughts and feelings, and I dropped it. HONEST.
And today....well today....I feel like a silly girl who threw a fit yesterday. My Sissy told me, that I have been dealt a hand of cards that has a few jokers in it. And she told me that, crazy recognizes crazy, and I was being crazy. She said I should start to worry when people cut their hair like mine. LMAO!
Truthful Summation: I have been feeling a little off all week due to a medication change. And I haven't been able to complete a sentence, conversation or thought with LEGS.....I need him, he is my touchstone and keeps my craziness at bay. But these are just excuses....
From time to time ARMS feels insecure, and how could I not when I am surrounded by wives that have so many talents? I admire and learn from these women, and I cannot wait to see what they accomplish in their lives. I just wanted to say that I hope they don't knife off other talents they have, and live to their full potential, as mothers, soldiers, wives, chefs, athletes, and friends to desperate lost people like myself.
My blog yesterday was more of a charge, if your going to blog, or do anything with your life- make it UNIQUE. Make it DIFFERENT. Make it SPECIAL.
I am still trying to find myself. So if you see me could you return me? I am still trying to figure out who I am so could you tell me you know me, and you understand me?
Guilty Pleasure:
I got on the scale, after contemplating eating red vines for dinner. I weighed 145!!! I have lost 10 lbs. since February. So I behaved and had a salad, but I did bust out the cool whip light. Did you know that if you eat some cool whip light, you can only consume a few pieces of chocolate??? My new diet trick. Eat some cool whip light, and then try to eat chocolate, guaranteed you won't eat as much chocolate.
Random Thoughts:
Due to my diarrhea of the mouth yesterday.....my random thoughts were all in the blog, and my random thoughts are in the blog today as well....
ARMS' Mailbox:
Be you, no one in the world is like you, they can't be.....
:*)
OVER & OUT
Just another day in the crazy mind of an unlikely military wife.....**
I am totally trying the cool whip before chocolate. My ass needs all the help it can get. I think we are all constantly trying to find ourselves because who we are changes as we grow. I bet that once a person stops trying to figure out exactly who they are that is also when growth as a person stops. You are wonderful. The people who know and love you know you are wonderful. We ALL have off days/ weeks etc. It's ok. You are a brave woman and I admire you :)
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