.....sky fall....**

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Beloved LEGS....

....a disorienting shift transpires....this is it.  Our eyes lock and I plead with every inch of my existence that you aren't really leaving.  I want to fall down on my knees before you and cry and beg you not to go.  Every one of us is frantically grasping and attempting to maximize...the last embrace....

....which always feels....a bit odd....because its panicked.  I want to say all these things and feel all these things and make you feel all these things but instead, I freeze.....I am paralyzed with grief and dismay......

.....And how hard it must be for all of you to tear away from us....and to know the anguish you have caused...and yet how brave, and strong, and professional you all are....and just like that you courageous, valiant men turn your backs and head to battle......

....this is the moment the sky begins to break.  Though I stand tall and mighty, and appear fearless, my chin down and my eyes forward........behind the Jackie Kennedy sunglasses are many perilous tears...the sound of children and babies crying and calling out to their Daddy's is really more than I can bare....and it begins another encore of tears....


.....before you leave, there is a ceremony...they make us wait so long for it to begin, that one of the children next to me says to her her Mom "maybe its a silent ceremony."  This sentiment shakes me and again a tear or two drops into my lap.

.....And as always.....when you go.  I find you.  And I watch you.  I don't take my eyes off you until I can't see you any more.  I think of and hope you feel all the love that I will ever have to give in my whole life upon you in these moments.....

.....in that enormous hanger....the deafening sound of hearts breaking rings out like a shot and continues to echo....the sound of a child's heart breaking.....is watching the sky fall.......

....Just another day in the life of an unlikely military wife....**