Beloved LEGS....
....I have been training really hard.
When its been too hot, or too hard, when I can't breathe, or my muscles can't give anymore, when I mentally hit that wall.....I say your name under my breath......and I say it for every rep I complete or for every second I hold on a little longer. At boxing I tell myself that for every perfect repetition I do, I secure our future together. Every time I sweat, every time I bleed, every time I get stronger, and better and faster....its because of you.....its for you....and my hard work will bring you back.....
.....The team was fighting yesterday at a fest in Langenzenn. We rolled in and rolled deep. Even though only two of us were supposed to fight, we were the biggest group. It gave me an opportunity to talk and play, and laugh and just enjoy the company of MY TEAM.....
....An important man from the Bavarian Boxing Club came over to me. He is an important and respected man. He grabbed my hands, looked me square in the eye and stood very close to me. He said (in German) "you must be very sad and irritated that your LEGS is not here. I am sorry he is away."
He then asked me about the World Tournament in the USA. He told me how happy he is that I will be competing in it, and that he is working hard to complete all the paperwork on time. He also asked if I will be competing in the German International Championship and at what weight.
After answering all of his questions and finishing the business conversation. He gave me a really strong hug. It made me feel.....like a persona that I hardly know is proud of me, is paying attention to me, and wants for me all the success the world has to offer, that he is rooting for us, and he understands its difficult. I don 't know why, but I felt like.....even though I couldn't be with my Daddy on Fathers day....and I miss him....more than I could have ever imagined....that the Universe sent me someone who is able to make me feel the same way Daddy does....
....The boys on the team.....they. They....circle me and love me so strongly. They take me in their arms, they are polite and careful and tender, courteous and protective....they feed me ;) BOTH LITERALLY and EMOTIONALLY.....when I am with them.....
...It almost feels as if you have taken me in the crook of your arm. They hold me close and they keep me safe. They listen.....even when words are not spoken. They make me laugh and smile. And every time I leave them......it feels like.....they have given me a new coat of armor......**
.....Just another day in the life of an unlikely military wife....**
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