Tank Girlz weather narrative: I couldn't tell you because its still dark outside. But let me get back to you later. LATER: Its been overcast and misty but pretty warm......
Last night LEGS and I started to watch 'The Social Network,' Queen Di had told me that somebody told her that after seeing that movie I wouldn't like facebook as much. First of all so far I am not that into the movie, second, as a military wife facebook allows me to stay in touch with my friends and family, so it hasn't changed my mind at all. AND....I just made the decision to NOT finish the movie.....
LEGS and ARMS tucked into bed and LEGS promptly fell asleep (heavy sigh.......TYPICAL) while ARMS laid in bed thinking......
So as usual LEGS rose at 5am this morning and I could not sleep another minute. Even though I was awake late into the night last night....I have so many things on my mind, I can't sleep and if I do I will wake up feeling groggy. I turned on some music and started laying out items we will need during the transition.
When LEGS got home he got dressed and went to work right away in the garage. After awhile he came upstairs with this random hunk of junk in his hand. He walked over to my nice wooden chair I keep in the corner of the master bedroom and slammed it down on the chair.
ARMS: In my mind: 'Mouth is open, husband is insane, has he lost his damn mind!?!' Then he excitedly runs over to me and says:
LEGS: 'Do you hear it?' And places the bizarre object near my ear.
ARMS: In my mind:' Okay.....I hear ringing....is that a symptom of shock?' I say: 'um...yes.....I hear ringing....'
LEGS: 'Isn't THAT SO COOL!?!'
ARMS: 'What the hell is that thing!?'
LEGS:'Its a piece of metal I was working on....its like a tuning fork...isn't it neat?' (while shoving it in my face)
ARMS: Sarcastically 'OMG it is soooooo coool! FYI I am putting this in the blog.....'
LEGS has many bizarre items stashed away in the garage. He has been to war, on the ground, with a gun.......he has many straps, camouflage bags, random tools, items, and belongings......so its like a torture chamber in there, I never quite know exactly what everything is for......
Today I asked him if we could toss these furry strappy things and this bizarre strechy cord.....(get your mind out of the gutter!).....
LEGS:' NOOOOOOOOO!!!!'
ARMS:' Okay, Okay.....what is it?
LEGS:' Don't you remember when I used to make Clancy pull me on the ski's?'
ARMS: In my mind:' Yes LEGS....I recall how ridiculous it was that you took our Golden Retriever out to Kincaid park and treated him like a dog sled dog.....I also remember Clancy getting tired and you having to drag him on your ski's out of the park......'
LEGS: 'I plan on getting another dog some day so we should keep it.'
ARMS: In my mind.....who am I to judge? If he doesn't feel like a complete idiot doing that.....
We found a horrificly ugly fake plant I used to have. It was tossed. That is one thing about being an military wife, I can't have plants. If I do then I just have to give them away when I leave. I had a peace lily The Mommy gave me when LEGS left for Iraq. I nurtured it and loved it for 4 years, then I had to give it away.
I also found all the dolls, toys, blankets etc. that I had as a child and kept. As a little girl my room was 'Dolls' and I was all about dolls, playing with them, having a baby every where I went. I had an old wicker shelf where The Mommy kept all the special edition dolls.
I remember I went through a spell as a child where I would have horrible, terrible nightmares, I would run down the stairs and beg The Mommy to let me in the bed with her and The Daddy. She would tell me No, and then suggest I get a doll to keep the boogie man away. I used to always request to sleep with the 'special' dolls and she would always say NO. (To The Mommy: I know you are reading this and I just want to tell you: That's F*cked up!) ;)
Whether a night of sleeping with them would have ruined them or not is I guess....debatable....but either way I still have them and I am grateful for that.
We also found a journal LEGS had before he went to WAR and a diary I had when I met LEGS (TOO FUNNY!!!). In LEGS' journal I wrote a passage that made us both tear up today in the garage. It reads:
'Hey Babie (the nickname LEGS had still not been discovered)
I know this is a serious misconduct of your privacy, and I risk being in a lot of trouble by writing in your journal and reading it too. But I hope on the day you find this....We will still be doing great, and instead of being angry my words will warm your heart, and perhaps bring a smile to your face, and maybe, just maybe you will begin to understand how in love I am with you.
I read your journal tonight because for some reason I feel empty. Maybe its because the last couple of days have been bad, or maybe its because of the way you spoke to me tonight, or maybe its because I am in one of those 'Sunday Night Moods.'
You are sleeping. How precious you are when you sleep. I miss you when you sleep. Its probably because your always so far away dreaming...I hope you are dreaming of me.
I have been wanting to write you a letter lately, and its always when I have beautiful things to say to you, but at this moment every single word and though has just welled up in my throat and brought big tear drops to my eyes.
Don't worry 'Couf' I am not sad. I am happy because I never thought I would find my soul mate, I never thought I would find such a perfect man, whose EVERY ACTION MAKES ME FEEL ALIVE! (At this point I kinda crashed and burned by writing a plethora of Love Song Lyrics) Signed: All of me, Tiffy'
LEGS said: 'Do I still make you feel alive?'
ARMS: Sh*t I am starting to cry....'Of course you do!'
I still feel the same way, like we are really lucky we found each other. I also thought to myself after we read these journal passages out loud- one reason we are still crazy about each other is because we have an 'old love' we write each other letters, we slow dance in the house, we laugh at every opportunity and we take care of each other just like "old' people used to do.....
If I died today my life as I experienced it this morning in the garage would be worth watching.......
Random Thoughts:
OMIGOSH....My back is KILLING ME, and my hip......I am seriously getting old....
EWWWWWW! Spiderwebs.....pretend it doesn't bother,you pretend it doesn't bother you, PRETEND it doesn't BOTHER YOU- BUT IT DOES!!!! BLECK!
Okay seriously, I'm cereal we have a seriously ridiculous amount of Christmas lights......and we have to get rid of ALL of them :( Will anybody even want these?
Will anybody want any of this stuff? I just can't help but think people won't buy our stuff and some starving kid or family could use it, even if I take it to Good Will I wonder if it ever makes it in the right hands??? And if Good Will doesn't want it I know some where in the world somebody does......how utterly disappointing it is that we have so much and people have so little and the ones that have so little can't get what we have so much of........
AHHHHHhhhhhh........Its been a busy day, time to Zen out at Yoga, eat some steak and watch a movie with LEGS......
Over & Out...
Just another day in the life of a very happy unlikely military wife......**
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