I WILL RAM YOU!!!**

Perhaps its the rain, or the fact that the house is cold when I wake up, or all the posts on FB from AK talking about snow (shhhh don't tell anyone but I am jealous- I miss SNOW!!!), but I must admit I am feeling pensive..............or musingly or dreamily thoughtful these last couple of days.

Since I have been cleaning the house, I have been thinking we have only been in this house for a year- and its finally starting to feel like a home and here were are just getting ready to leave again.  I was also thinking how I put things in the same places that my mom puts them in her house, like the heating pad and Iron go in the linen closet....why do I do that???.....How I have started to make friends with people that I truly connect with, enjoy and have come to love.  Also, I have found so many things that we never fully unpacked, it bothers me that this is how it may always be so long as we are in the military.  I unpacked things today that I forgot we even had......I'm not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing...........

Its really windy out today, and they say we are expected to get gusts up to 50 mph, I would not be surprised if the power goes out- in AL- when it gets windy this happens a lot.  Its the first day since March I have put jeans on and wore shoes other then flip-flops.  LEGS and I even contemplated putting an extra blanket on the bed last night.  I hate turning the heat on in this house because unlike Alaska- the insulation sucks so I swear we are just heating the outdoors.  I think in December last year the heat was running non-stop and LEGS and I were shuffling around in the house in thick warm socks and Beanie's on our heads.

I don't know why but I let my friend Flora convince me to run a 5K with her on Saturday morning.  Its the annual Chili 5K and they have a chili cook off afterward.  I starred at the mailbox all day yesterday-which enclosed my check and registration for the race- contemplating whether or not I should do it.  I like running, but I am not the strongest runner, and I am so competitive that I wonder if I am going to kill myself right off the starting line.  I keep envisioning myself pulling a hammy, or getting a terrible side stitch, or having an asthma attack........Can you imagine me dragging my leg behind me over the finish line screaming "I did it all for the chili!!!" LOLZ!!!

I sometimes feel like exploding on people.  Today I was at the commissary, and there wasn't enough room for me and this other pair of people to fit- they gave me this look like I would be the rude one if I went first even though I think they worked at the Commissary- so I let them go first.  They didn't even say Thank you........so I proceeded in my vexation to roll my eyes and bustle through the narrow opening.........only to RAM my cart as hard as I could (not on purpose by accident) it made a huge sound and sent my groceries flying to the back end of the cart- I could feel my face grow pink with embarrassment..........Stupid people.........Then I got in this ladies way in the meat section and I apologized three times and smiled and she just glared at me- and at the very end of the shopping trip this VERY LARGE woman with a cart full of sh*t that she should not be eating cut in front of me in line.......its times like these where I start fantasizing about carrying around one of those air horns and blasting people in the face with it!!! And shouting in the words of the Great Chap Chap- I WILL RAM YOU!!!

I just grit my teeth and start to think I really need to start boxing again.........

They are selling the pumpkin spice coffee, and Pumpkin Egg nog at the commissary.  I dare not drink the egg nog straight for fear of gaining 15 pounds with one glass so I use it as creamer in my coffee in the morning.......

I am praying that some pumpkin spice coffee, a leftover cupcake from Halloween and some yoga tonight with friends and some serious knitting time is going to cure me of my irate hallucinations**