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I warn you this is more about my Zombie Disease:
Classic chicken and Egg situation.
I start feeling a little tired and warn out. I tell myself that it might be the thyroid, but then I 'get real' and list all the things that I have going on that make me tired and warn out. And I keep telling myself that until LEGS says I should go to the Doctor as a precaution and have my blood checked.
I go to the Doctor and they say I am normal. But I don't feel normal. Since I haven't been on the same dose of synthroid for more than a few months- I start asking myself what is normal? Do I even know or remember what normal feels like? Seriously? Then I start thinking I am crazy. LEGS and I usually fight more, and I can't poop.
When my mom was diagnosed a few years back- I remember hanging up the phone with her and telling LEGS on a normal basis that my mother was going to API (Alaska Psychiatric Institution) any day now........
I understand why now- I feel trapped inside my own body fighting a disease that I can't beat........it makes me feel like going insane.......
O.K. I am done telling you my long story full of sighs, what is wrong with the mall being open but nobody is shopping, or the elevator not going all the way up, or having no pages in the middle of my book........
Tomorrow I am going to embrace my psychotic tendencies.....stay tuned....
Just another 5 minutes in the life of an unlikely military wife.........**
About Me
- Tiff**
- A Day, A Week, A Month, A Year...IN THE LIFE of AN UNLIKELY.....MILITARY WIFE....** (A collection of snapshots, letters and memoirs DEDICATED to CHRISTOPHER ALLAN COUSSENS.)
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Screw feeling normal....embrace the ill feelings! Think about it....do you ever wonder why people think your amazing? It's because when you feel as good as everyone else does, you actually appreciate it and seize it!
ReplyDeleteWhen Im feeling good and acting "normal" people as me..."wow, whats up with you? why are you in such a good mood?". My answer? "Well I just happened to wake up this morning and didnt feel like somone shoved an axe up my ass motherfucker." You hear me?
ReplyDeleteG- I do often wonder why people think I am so amazing- you know that......and the second comment made me laugh out loud the first time I read it then succeeding times later on when I thought about it.....Love on ya G- tiff**
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